YOU

The way you loved yourself so biasedly
Wish I could do that to myself a little too…

Having an innocent face, you planned your way in like a sly fox without giving any invitation,
Wish I had a little bit of psychic intuition to predict your cruel intention…

Psychologically situations were drenching me, depression was only around;
Thought you were my true friend, battling in the same ground.

Who knew you were the one, who cunningly laid out blades identical to grasses…
How did you forget all those kind sacrifices and emotional embraces?!

How cruel of you!
How cruel of you!
How cruel of you!

You tried to convince me that I’m the messed up one, efforts of mine was never good enough according to your observance,
Breaking me was your ultimate goal just to succeed on your mission of dominance.

Wasn’t a fool so you proved your determination in the toughest way possible, in the beginning of our riddle;
Gradually earned my trust only to crush me in the middle?!
Still remember your speech on being ’real’,
Used to admire how authentic you were and ideal.

Alas!

Yes, for you, you succeeded on your ill will!
But wait, that won’t last long….
Yes, go and give yourself a pat on the back, celebrate!
But wait, that didn’t last long….

Date Written: March 13 2020
© AlvnaKarim

Affected by Chlorine

Found this Dragonfly
Sadly, it was already gone on the other side,
Pool’s chlorine trap protected the ‘water’ for its showoff owner succeeded!

Before taking the flight today, little did this beautiful and healthy creature knew about its fate,
As deceiving portraits created by humans kept on snatching these lives everyday more than yesterday…

© AlvnaKarim

Beautiful Delusion

Covered with pink rose petals… 

The green field, covered with pink petals here and there,
Seemed like a massacre at first; 
To get the full view one will have to see from top.

She rolled her eyes looking at the extravagant situation!
Then she screamed!
Why?!

At a close distant, behind the willow trees, there’s a tree house! 

Inside the tree house, fairy lights were covered all over the ceiling. 
Lava lamps along with the gigantic moon lamp was nicely organized highlighting pastel colored splash paintings on the wall. 

A printed version on canvas of the famous mural ‘Girl with Balloon’ by Banksy was displayed on the other side of the wall. 
It reminded her trip to Amsterdam, visiting Moco Museum. 

There was fluffy pillows all over the floor that seemed like clouds…

She tiptoed and went close to the window to see the view from top & witnessed pink rose petals that seemed like caused a massacre earlier, actually crafted one beautiful dream catcher!

About The Ending:

The last paragraph of this post was a bit different. For some reason changed the dark ending. Life is complicated and not about rainbows and butterflies. But to justify the title ‘Beautiful Delusion’, couldn’t finish the way thought before.

Though in the end it’s all a delusion, doesn’t mean we will have to surrender ourselves to life’s complications but to stay hopeful for the good stuffs and keep striking back.

© AlvnaKarim

স্পন্দন/Impulse

I’ve written several poems but this one was the second poem that I wrote in Bengali Language. Bangla is a language that is very close to my heart. Didn’t want to translate the lines, so accept my apology but I feel like the translation would’ve snatched the actual flavor & rawness of the poem. But if anyone wants to know then I would definitely share a short summary about it.

স্পন্দন

ভালবাসা সে তো এক বিভীষিকার নাম;
আগুনের মত জ্বলে,
শৈল্পিক এক স্পন্দন।

কিন্তু…..
বুঝে ওঠার আগেই হারিয়ে যায়।

দিন, বছর, যুগ;
বার্ধক্য আসে,
মানুষ বদলে যায়…

মানুষের সেই সারিতে আমি কেমন প্রানী?
যে আজও স্মৃতি আঁকড়ে বাঁচি?

আশা? কেমন আশা?
(অট্টহাসির শব্দ আসে চারপাশ থেকে)

হাহাকার উঠে হৃদয়ের মাঝে,
আর্তনাদে মুষড়ে পড়ি,

বক্ষভেদ করে বিষাক্ত তীর।

১০ মার্চ, ২০১৫
ঢাকা, বাংলাদেশ

© AlvnaKarim

The Irony

How it Happened?

Thought about writing a poem without using pronouns and ended up writing this one.

Poem #4
The Irony

Glad to remember every single trail,
Stored closely into the human brain.
The good ones & the opposite ones,
Harsh failings, clueless blames.

Took it all, also swallowed;
It was the little world, have always adored...

Seen that drowning, upside down and the deterioration;
Red cells couldn’t stop the cremation.

On the other side, wish everything is going well to live;
Hope present days brought the peace this side couldn’t give.
Hope finding ‘peace’ is healing for real,
Hope perfect life has eliminated the absolute obstacle.

Place: Tennessee, Usa

© AlvnaKarim