Inner Peace

There will be always some people who’ll judge you for your status/class/power/money. If you travel the world and the people who belittled you earlier in the past, are all gonna say ‘wow what an achievement!’. Some who never talked will talk, some who always rolled their eyes whenever you passed them will know there’s no point to do that anymore cuz you’re out of their reach. So they’ll start showing their admiration finally.

But you never were concerned cuz you conquered what you always wanted. You knew yourself when everyone was doubting, when no one was there to stand beside you.

Also no matter what new situation you are in you’ll still find people who wants prove or some sort of confirmation that whether you have the audacity to blend in with them, or whether you’re equal. This equal fact depends on status, money, power and showing off materialistic stuffs. The more you brag, the more you get accepted by the so called society. That society which never stops judging or just chasing the mirage.

Funny fact is these people from the society never actually felt the ease of peacefulness. They don’t even realize they’re living a lie for so long that they’ve engraved it in their hearts all by themselves.

So today might not be your day, but stay content about your situation and keep working with dedication. No matter what you’ll find true peace and gradually will realize true happiness can’t ever be compromised with all those glittery achievements that society wanted you to achieve in order to give you a seat at their table.

Just go along with your honesty, stay humble, true to yourself and gradually some day/one day all those people would want an rsvp to join your table. But that day it won’t matter to you cuz you’ve grown to a person where you’ll have more important things to think about, to make this world a little bit better you’ll treasure that inner peace & keep on working…

© AlvnaK

Journey Of Life

We probably all know Vincent Van Gogh. The famous artist?!
Okay if some of you are still hazy about who’s Van Gogh just google just to have an idea about his work.

As we’re on the same page now, just a suggestion for all who travels: please just don’t take pictures, or bluntly hear what’s the guide’s blabbering cuz it can get really annoying and piss you off. So if you commit to visit, even just to take pictures please roam around & know the place from your point of view. I bet you’ll find stories that’ll interest you even if you hated history classes still those isles while walking through will amuse you.

So Van Gogh was a guy who was extremely gifted. Though people didn’t know or care about him throughout his whole lifetime. But he didn’t care, he walked in his own way & followed his calling. He left his dad’s family business, only his brother’s support was by his side. He was living a very sad life, literally. But found happiness in his work & never stopped following his dream through portraying nature & life. Though ultimately life got him bad, he surrendered after a betrayal from a friend whom he thought was dear.

But little did he know just after he surrendered to himself, his beloved brother on the other hand wouldn’t be able to take the pain?
He died naturally, couldn’t take the shock of his brother’s passing, leaving a young bride & a child.
His sister-in-law found tons of letters both brothers exchanged. She wanted to honor both. So she started displaying Van Gogh’s paintings into various exhibitions.

Gradually it became very popular over the years, she passed away but her offspring held on to uncle’s legacy and flourished it more.

Nowadays, if you visit Van Gogh Museums you’ll see it all. The love, the dedication, the tragedy, the letters etc all together will portray a story of life & choices.

So fact is no matter what, any sort of fulfillment, goals will come along, even if it seems there’s no way still just tag along with this life.
Because even if you think you don’t matter, you actually matter.
Even if you think you’ve seen it all or figured all out, still have an open mind that there’s so much more to explore.
If not today, someday will be your day just remain honest, kind, helpful & cautious.
You’ll give kudos to yourself that you’ve survived this journey of life.

© AlvnaK

‘Comfortable’ Life

Didn’t want to choose that glittery ‘comfortable’ life.
Where, one will have to play either the obedient of dominance; or, by taking part on playing screwed up dramas to convince a point.

Yes;
To some, it might be great not to see it this way,
To some, its following the tradition,
To some, these are crappy feminist thoughts,
To some, putting a fake smile acting it’s all perfect is the right way,
To some, ‘what will people say’ is the only concern…

Honestly, some creatures never ever want to consider the idea that one day —

They’re gonna grow old, frail & a human from past decade that people someday will refer;
That all the materialistic stuffs, they flaunted about was never truly theirs in the first place.
The family, they thought were so nicely built are actually filled with vultures only to overtake the power.
Most of all, realizing this very life isn’t for, forever…

A good life is all about joy & sorrow,
Cumulatively about satisfactions & dissatisfactions.
Ain’t against having a blessed life either!

But firstly, achieving that good life through own capability demands courage,
That peace will never compensate with any other image.
Also not against of those whom are supportive partners, who wants to work as a team by elevating & comforting one another during thick & thin altogether.
Not even against the life that gradually flourishes into a glorious one;
Because, partners will have a mutual consent on decisions they’ve made together with honesty, freewill & peaceful discussion.

Even though it won’t be eternal as life is short,
But it’ll be worth living for.
A story not just to tell others,
But to reminisce as memories forever.

© AlvnaK

Cape Jasmines Only

There was no wishlist,
Boring lectures were all gloomy without any twist.

Was waiting for a miracle as days were passing;
Nothing seemed special only numbers were adding to the monotonous aging.

One fine evening, a blissful wind blew me off the track, while passing closely…
Dragged me out of my misery and brightened mornings with cape jasmines only.

© AlvnaK

YOU

The way you loved yourself so biasedly
Wish I could do that to myself a little too…

Having an innocent face, you planned your way in like a sly fox without giving any invitation,
Wish I had a little bit of psychic intuition to predict your cruel intention…

Psychologically situations were drenching me, depression was only around;
Thought you were my true friend, battling in the same ground.

Who knew you were the one, who cunningly laid out blades, identical to grasses…
How did you forget all those kind sacrifices and emotional embraces?!

You tried to convince me that I’m the messed up one, efforts of mine was never good enough according to your observance;
Breaking me was your ultimate goal just to succeed on your mission of dominance.

Wasn’t a fool so you proved your determination in the toughest way possible, in the beginning of our riddle;
Gradually earned my trust only to crush me in the middle?!
Still remember your speech on being ’real’,
Used to admire how authentic you were and ideal!

Alas!

Yes, for you, you succeeded on your ill will!
But wait, that won’t last long….
Yes, go and give yourself a pat on the back, celebrate!
But wait, that didn’t last long….

Date Written: March 13 2020
© AlvnaK

Creativity’s Craving

If you’re a creative person worldly life will never satisfy you,
Only your creation and the perfection’s joy will tranquilize you.

The dimension from every aspect will challenge you,
And only you can rest it to peace through calming the cravings that’s in you.

The Mystery of Mind

© AlvnaK